After turning back to Canada in 11th Nov 2026, and back to Waterloo in 18th Nov 2026, I find myself in a werid status. In these two weeks, I didn’t apply for any jobs while I’m anxious about my finicial status. I use learning as an excuse but spent a litter time in studying. I know I’m avoiding pressure, but I don’t have the courage to change this.

After returning to Canada on November 11, 2026, and coming back to Waterloo a week later, I’ve found myself in a strange state. Over the past two weeks, I haven’t applied for any jobs, even though I’m constantly worried about my financial situation. I keep telling myself that I need time to study, but in reality I’ve spent very little time actually learning. I know I’m avoiding the pressure, but I simply don’t have the courage to break out of this cycle yet.

After buy a new VPS and deploy a new system. I also transfer my personal website gongjian.me to this server. The old blog based on WordPress, which is built a long time age but never got used, is also gone when I deleted the old server. With a new server, I deployed a new blog system using a more modern system Astro, and decide to restart practise my English writing by writing blog.

Recently, I bought a new VPS and set up a fresh system. I also moved my personal website, gongjian.me, onto it. The old WordPress blog, which I built a long time ago but never really used, disappeared when I deleted the previous server. With this new setup, I deployed a modern Astro-based blog and decided to restart my English writing practice here.

I’ll write in my own words first, and then using AI to tell me how to improve.

I’ll write in my own words first, and then let AI help me improve.

So let’s start!

So, let’s begin.